smiley :D

2011-10-02T15:42:00.002+08:00

你对我说，这并非什么贵重的礼物

当时，其实我想告诉你

贵不贵重对我而言并不算什么

那份心意我已收到了

谢咯！:)

2011-09-29T10:44:00.001+08:00

坏人不好做

好人不易做

那我该做什么？

难道友情里真心的是那么的寥寥无几吗？

2011-09-27T10:53:00.000+08:00

想必　你我都是在生活中不能让人知道的秘密
躲躲藏藏　是种情趣
但　渐渐地　它只成了一种让人想多的压力

2011-09-23T02:01:00.002+08:00

爱情是盲目的　即使是知道事情的真相我们依然催眠自己
它　让人冲昏了头脑，失去理智
也许我们之间充的冲动　无意让它发生
甜美回忆，温暖的拥抱　瞬间成了尴尬的问候，开不了口的话　以及冷漠的对待
想必　我只是那不起眼的小家伙
但　我只期待你发现我的存在　而对我多些关心
其实我已被打入冷宫　我坚持　等待奇迹到临的那一刻
担心太多是无益　但糊涂的决定出现了

2011-09-18T16:57:00.001+08:00

那个人并不爱你，你为她做了多少事情让她感动，你必须知道“感动”并不是爱

2011-09-18T16:55:00.002+08:00

Remember the guy I used to love so much, so deeply? Although it took me so long to realize how big an asshole he is, the time is worth it. Because I no longer have to see him flirting with other girls in front of me, praising them, or perhaps dating them while with me. And come back to tell me I'm his lowest priority. Love was so blind for me, who fed me those alcohol?

i found this from elaine's all. i hope she will be fine. *cheerrrs*

by the way, i just found that what she wrote is true and meaningful.

yea! LOVE IS BLIND

2011-09-17T23:53:00.002+08:00

时间滴答滴答地溜着

它过得比我们想象中还快

但我们并没察觉到

当初的我们盼望着自己长大的那一天

如今我们却站在这回想当初

矛盾的人们根本还对自己摸不找

可是也许现在我们都发现到自己不像以前一样

不再听别人的命令而是有了自己的意见

2011-09-16T23:47:00.002+08:00

不知道为什么

就突然间心好疼

2011-09-16T23:35:00.002+08:00

相识容易相处难
不同人拥有不同相处的方法
我们个个来自不同背景不同地方
不能希望每个人与自己一样
礼让是基本需要
时间渐渐地过去了人的性格也渐渐浮现
这才发现这并不是我认识的
相处原来比我想象中的困难
它须要一门诀窍
否则人会彻底地看不起你
也许我还不是时候去掌握这门诀窍

2011-09-16T02:41:00.000+08:00

勉强的笑容　永远是最累的
刻意留下好印象是因为我在乎
我荣幸　没伪装自己
就算压力烦恼在眼前　笑容依然挂在脸上
我相信　凡事笑一笑　没什么大不了。

2011-09-16T02:36:00.000+08:00

发现　我并非你喜欢的那类型
但　我能怎么样
我只是我自己　虽然曾尝试努力改造
但　良心过意不去
选择　放弃
如今　我只希望不被淘汰　不被抛弃

2011-09-16T00:57:00.001+08:00

也许是我有点不开心
我根本没力气打起精神来
:(

2011-09-15T23:59:00.001+08:00

请别问我前一个是什么
我不想提起
这是我不想提起的烦人东西
我一点都不稀罕！

你有你的生活

2011-09-15T23:45:00.008+08:00

Show encrypted text

hint: the password that we have before

2011-09-11T17:27:00.002+08:00

许愿祈祷希望你在我身旁

每当我需要你的时候

请借一借我你的肩膀靠一靠

我只想向你撒娇让你疼一疼

从那拥抱当中第一次感觉到你

我不舍得放手

请别再次对我不理不睬

我不喜欢离别的伤痛

我想要让你知道

“ 我爱你！”

如果真心对我的话

请你以真诚证明让我知道

2011-09-11T16:58:00.002+08:00

泪水随着音乐渐渐流下

曾告诉自己痛苦远离了快乐在不远处等着

回问自己到底现在是否开心？

我回答不出

人并没有什么特能可以看穿人心

不断地想着对人一点好处都没有

不知道对你而言我算什么

还曾怀疑你对我到底有没有动心？

我介意我在乎我关心

并非什么怀疑或不信任

而是你比我思想中还重要

还要更爱你

现在到底我们处于在什么状态当中

我不希望拖拖拉拉让事情搞砸了

2011-09-02T23:38:00.002+08:00

真诚的友情得来不易

它并不会说来就来说去就去

而是要我们细心的保护

此时此刻，我才真正了解

那天跟宝贝们说着说着

眼泪竟在眼眶打转

那种贴心那种温柔再也找不到了

他们已是我的家人

2011-08-15T15:06:00.001+08:00

如果你不爱我能告诉我一声吗？

*我爱你！*

2011-08-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

爱你，那又怎么样？

2011-08-15T00:47:00.001+08:00

seriously i got tired of it D:

it shows that we're not suit to be together?

2011-08-15T00:25:00.002+08:00

原来要你的陪伴是那么的痛苦

其实有时并非刻意那么的迟睡

而只希望得到你少少的陪伴

但为何为何次次都得到这样的下场

我不甘心更不知道

对你来说我是什么？

2011-08-14T23:12:00.001+08:00

难道爱上你都有错吗？

为什么我要爱上你。

爱上你有那么的痛苦吗？

2011-08-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

i'm studying about psychology while my brother is watching movie that related with psychology beside me. roarrrrrr!

different people different life :( ahhahhahah

2011-08-14T18:38:00.000+08:00

对不起。我只是对自己没信心罢了

2011-08-14T16:14:00.003+08:00

what's wrong with fall with people

i feel stupid to fall for a person

hard get someone when you need them

the feelings, i couldn't describe

i'm trying myself to accept everything

but yet, sometimes i feel uncomfortable

i dont care, i fall for you, so i try to accept

alamak! i dont know how to express it

*update after finalssssss*

2011-08-14T16:09:00.002+08:00

the reason for me to have a blog is because i wanna to update everything and note down everything in my life. but since N months before, i didnt really update my blog. what's in my blog are just those nonsense that not related what's in my life. :) i know, due to some reason, i dislike to update it.

my semester going to end soon. i think i m not going to update everything in my semester here. but what? i enjoy :) stories, i think i should be update it during my holidays, now actually i m preparing for my finalssss. but my mood wasn't in study. hmphhhhhhhh

by the way, what's wrong with me? my mood was down.

2011-03-10T14:45:00.001+08:00

射手

关键词：
我看(I see)

你、射手
拿着你的箭准备射向真理?
准备射向自由?
两眼一摸黑
却不小心射伤了爱你的人
甚至射伤了自己……

障碍：
看不到的恐慌

请冥想出一副画面
一个半人马的骑士手持弓箭
被一块布蒙住了双眼

他有力量
因为他是马
有耐力和强壮的大腿
他可以跑的很快
他有智慧
因为他有人的头脑
他有工具
一把很有用的箭

但是这一切发生了一个转折
他的眼睛被蒙蔽了
他跑偏离方向还摔跤
他很紧张
手足无措地乱射箭
因为他好害怕好害怕……
只有这样他才稍稍觉得安全

射手通常自己蒙上眼睛
这样他就不用去看到目标
也不用在意周围的景色和人
这样他们就可以安全的活在自己的世界里
但是真的可以安全了么?
换来的就只是无尽的恐惧
他们会很担心
然后想要逃离

你爱他
想要抚摸他
他看不到
却以为是攻击
于是踢你一大脚
然后才发现搞错了

他们依赖爱人
因为他们要依赖别人的眼睛去走路
可当你告诉他的时候
他却又不能相信
因为他并没有自己亲眼看到

原因：
一个射手的孩子
似乎很早就开始思考起人生
他们喜欢观察
他们也深入思考
但奇怪的是
越观察越迷惘
越思考越困惑

射手男在爱情方面有很坏的名声
射手女往往被大家说成是“傻大姐”式的人物
但是请注意了
在他们毫不在意的外表下
却隐藏着深深的创伤

他们对恋人的黏着欲望绝对不亚于金牛
他们就是小孩子
期待着保护也期待着成长

其实射手座是一个十分克己的星座
因为他们半人半马的特性
使得很多射手压抑了下半身的渴望
所以我们经常会看到举步不前的射手座
他们压抑了自己动物性的一面
也同时压抑住了自己的力量源泉

射手恐惧那原始的力量
他不知道如果他照着自己的目标去奔跑
是不是会引来太多的敌人?
会不会失去太多的伙伴?

解决：
射手座不势利
即使他们想要获得金钱
也并不是因为金钱本身
他们想要的是那个高处的感觉
那个山顶的视野

不过他们并不知道
蒙蔽他们的并不是一个低处
并不是因为他们在山底
而是因为他们蒙蔽了自己的眼睛

不过请不要指责他们
在小的时候我们都是无助的
我们没有能力选择社会道德
也没有能力选择家庭
其实就算可以选择
父母们受到的教育也是压抑性的
小孩子哪懂什么性?
他们只是对自己的身体感兴趣罢了

但这个不幸一直都在发生
这个禁忌取缔了射手座的力量
他们相信头脑远胜过本能
而在某些压抑过渡的情况下
本能的力量在他们头脑没有足够防备的时候
便将他们多年的控制击败

深呼吸
当你和你爱的人在一起
深呼吸、共同呼吸
去感觉那个身体
那个深埋的爱的情感

触摸、爱抚
情侣间的按摩
都对射手具有疗愈的作用
慢慢地……
当他可以活在自己的身体里
那个“看”就会出现
他睁开眼睛
不再有恐惧

i love this post

2011-03-10T00:15:00.000+08:00

why i care?

people, i am lost!

2011-03-02T18:41:00.002+08:00

tears are disturbing me

from the call

mind changed

try as soon as possible

people,i'm suffer. i can't tell out everything.this time, i think i'll regret badly with my decision. sohow?istillhavetostaystrong

2011-02-27T23:20:00.004+08:00

ionic bonds or covalent bonds? nope, it's FRIENDSHIP bonds

they're important in my life, without them,

Jace that you meet will never appear in front of you.

for everyone, they think that i'm strong, sad face will seldom appear

that's what i had learn from my babes!

closing the light around me, looking at the laptop screen,

i remember something about our past.

light off, movie screen on, maggie mee with us. that's what we always did when we sleep over.

chocolate in room will never never happen again if i'm alone

songs that we sing during wash plate and toilet are slowly disappear from my mind

the sounds, the voices are getting softer and softer,

until i can't really recognize.

when's the last photo of us? the sampat, the smile?

they're not with me and my heart is with you guys.

sun, rainbow, star and moon

they occur because of gossip. but how long didn't for us to do so.

and i remember laughing is our medicine

no matter how tired are we, after laughing everything change fine

tic toc, tic toc, tic toc, tic toc. . .

i had leaving from you guys for 3 years i think.

during all these years, i meet others too

until the last, we're still being bond together, can't even separate

dears! we need to sleep over again. sharing secret.

there's something that i haven told you guys

honestly, i didn't even dare to share out. i feel sucks with myself

only with you guys, the real me will never hide away.

TALK. we need to wait for the day to come

♥

2011-01-09T12:59:00.008+08:00

if i ask do you know what club that i join in my high school. i think i'm sure you'll say cheerleading and kelab kebudayaan. yea! that's the only club that i active in. for me, kelab kebudayaan is a super awesome club for me, actually cheerleading is the same too! but i got something to say about it( think it yourself). firstly, do you know how much time, how much energy, how much effort i had pay for it. i joined it since form 1. i work hard just to know more about it, get it to the squad for competition and lots. i cancel all my outing, being scold by parents, and a lot of thing i have to give up just because of it. and now, i just out from the club for one year, and everyone can just forget you. they'll always remember you whenever they need your help. but before they return things from you, they will still forget you. no matter how good you wanna them to return to you, they'll use more than two months to return things from you. sometimes my seniors always ask me why i didn't attend this attend that. problem is it don't even know about it, yeah! i'm the only one who don't know about it. i just realize that why the one who give out the most afford always forget by others but others which had out from it for more that two years can being remember by others?

"Hey! are you gonna come back on this coming saturday for the Reunion? :)"

i saw this in facebook in everyone's wall except me. my heart was totally sank. and now, i just wanna you guys being honest to me. Isn't it everyone that i meet hate me lots? and the reason. just answer me this question, and be honest to me. THAT'S ALL.

*close eye. until the moment my breath is stop, i also remember how hurts is it."

2011-01-05T20:29:00.002+08:00

hey peep, thanks for your message, i guess i know what to do now. so now, i m trying to leave it and delete some of them in my mind. and now

1111111111111111111

22222222222222222222

33333333333333333333333

deleting :D

i'll cheer up myself. smile

2011-01-03T22:54:00.002+08:00

first day of working, do you know how cute are primary kids? i can say that they're extremely cute. their face are chubby, the way they talk are cute. looking at them doing art work, it recall me when i m a primary student. the same place, same teacher teaching me how to do art work, i am the one sitting there listen what teacher says, but today onwards they are the one sitting on the place that i sat before listening what i say. when i see the, suffering from doing correction and memorizing something, it makes me remember about how i try to finish all my work in the time but i still fail to do so. a girl told me " teacher, i lost my shoes", at first i feel funny, but suddenly i remember that i did the same thing too. "lin lao shi, lin lao shi, lin lao shi" keep appear around my head, i nearly laugh when i heard it. i found that it really sounds funny.

bla bla bla. whatever. lastly, i got maggie mee goreng and green tea starbucks from my babe as dinner. owh! how cool is him standing there waiting his girl finish working :D

2011-01-03T22:14:00.002+08:00

i'm going to be crazy soon. messages are always the only things that can recall all my memories. i don't know do you guys know that i really care for my ex. even now, he's still important in my heart and my boy knows about it too. i know that actually he minds, but he didn't even stopped for letting my ex being important in my heart. now, due to my brother stupid reason i have to give my mum my phone which full of my sweet memories about my ex and my boy. i can't imagine what if my mum really see them. i think she's going to kill me :/ so what i can do? delete all the messages? NO! i won't. i rather kill myself, i also won't delete them. i can't express how both of them are important in my life. i nearly crazy for them. i really touch when i discuss it with my boy just now. he said that he'll try resend all the message which he sent before to me, but he still trying hard to help me keep my ex message. BABE, it's really touch for you to do so to me. i know that what i did now might hurt you, so i going to say sorry. i really wish that all the message will just keep in my phone and i won't touch them, but atleast sometimes i can see them when i'm bored to recall all my memories. heart

ps: someone you have to be careful with your attitude. if one day, you really make me crazy and my tears wet up my pillows, i'll just going to stop you with the girl. and all things about her and sim card thingy going to know by mum. i'm not going to be good ANYMORE!

2011-01-02T22:00:00.002+08:00

words for JWINES

i don't care anything in your mind. yea! for you guys, it sounds hurt. and now i going to say sorry to you if i did hurt you. but i don't care! i still wanna to say all things out, i can't imagine what's going on after this. but i know that, honest is just the one and only solution. do you remember how everyday we spend our night? it's TEXTING. we used to gossip, chatting about hot guys, what we have to pack for camp or trip, what books we have to bring on the next day, our relationship problems,what we doing on the spot and even our past by using texting. and it become one of my habit. but now,i didn't even manage to receive any message from you. no matter how my phone rings, my phone will never appear your names. as time pass, the message getting lesser and lesser and lastly disappear. at first, i am not use to it, but i have to forced myself to accept it. now, i manage to handle it

slowly i don't even have the dare to on your facebook profile. even sometimes, i don't even dare to STOP myself at the HOME page. all these most recent status making me emo. it's because i don't even know what the hell are you talking about. gossip, outing, crapping, spamming are disappear. i was stun whenever the new status in your profile. i forced myself to know everything from you, but i FAIL. i can't even update any news from you guys. for you, it's sounds like my fault, but do you think before if you am i, what's your feeling. keep saying that we are grown up, but do we really grow up, being mature, care for someone, think everything well for others for now and even future? yea! maybe now we keep blaming each other, but we're leaving each soon, i mean that we're not going to study at the same place anymore and what we meet will no longer the same. maybe someday you will just realize the world are different from our high school life. it can be even more complicated. yea! i wish we really have to wake up as soon as possible, so we can't still share our time together in the future. TAK CARE.

we really have a talk. but i can't really face to face to have it with you guys. i believe that i can't control my emotional at all. it's really sweet about our memories, the moment we laugh, we sampat, we cry for each others and lots. but too bad, i accidentally know that the LOVE that i treat them truly kena say i sympathy. OMG! i even cry badly when i know about it. my world was like fall. i nearly being crazy when i know that. i don't even have to mood to exam at all. i knows it during my SPM. i just crying badly on the spot. i really treat you guy with a true heart, you what? i hurt badly when i was form 2. i didn't really have a true friend beside Bernice. until form 4, i meet JWINES. i believe that you guys are one of the important in my life. now i going to be hurt again? NO, i don't want. JWINES is the ever crazy group that i had ever meet.

*my mind is blank now*

to be continue

2011-01-02T15:12:00.004+08:00

story starts from N years ago,i meet him at reading corner, that time i was with one of my friend. suddenly he joined us, and that time he was upset because a GIRL. i don't even know what are they talking about so i just zipped up my mouth and shut up. both of them were keep talking about HER and i continued with my homework.my friend wants me to join them, so i simply crap when they're talking.at that moment like going back home, text with my boy.in my mind, i just know that i don't even wants to knows him. i just care about my boy and i miss my boy.that's all.

after few weeks ago, i got a text from him. and yea! that time i was not in a good mood because there're some problems happen me and my friends even my boy. and he's the one who being my side to cheer me up. at first, i was like wth with his guy. but as times pass longer, i realize that what he says are meaningful, and we getting closer and closer.one day, i had an argument with my boy because of him. my boy had a misunderstanding between me and him, and i cried badly, he just believe whatever his friend told him, but what his friend told him wasn't a truth.so start from that day, i had made up my mind. i decided to ignore him. finally i did it.

do you guys believe in fate? no matter how hard i try ignore him, one day i still manage to talk to him. i did try to ignore him for few months and we didn't talk at all but one day suddenly i meet him at staircase. that time i accompany my friend to find her boyfriend in early morning, and he did the same thing too. who knows, both of them are couple. both of them spending their time early morning at the highest floor. while both of us waiting them at the staircase. as time pass, we start to talk again."tik tok" "tik tok" "tik tok" i don't know how many hours, how many days, how many months had pass. one day, he confess to me, but i rejected. because i love my boy.

first time, second time, third time... i don't even remember how many times he did confess to me. i just know that whenever he confess to me, and i just reject him. for a guy, if you confess to a girl for such a long time but she rejected you, will you still wait for me? i think mostly NO. but he, still always be the one be at my side support me whenever i need, whenever i had problem. when i had problem although it's about my boy or people who i fall for or friends, i'll just find him for a chat. and i didn't even fail to receive any message from him.

there're always argument, misunderstanding between us. i'll post whatever problem that we had faced soon. now finally 700 plus days had over. the day he confess to me, what he had did for me on that day, i really appreciate. lastly, he shouted loudly when he get me.he's now officially my boy . thanks babe♥

words for JWINES

2011-01-02T01:08:00.003+08:00

words for JWINES (part1)

谁人还记得JWINES的由来？

请问当初的那份热情以及那股真诚已到何处去了

渐渐地，这名字也开始消失了

也许对你们而言，这还存在

但你们是否发现一切都不再像以前一样了

相信有的都知道我有话要说

是否好奇为何至今仍然未说呢？

坦白说，其实我是有话说不出口

发现，如再不说再不解决一切将变化

我也不想抱着遗憾或误会开始新的一年

首先，请问对你们而言什么是朋友，什么是姐妹？

一年一年地过着，我们之间的问题也越来越大

渐渐发现，我已不能在融入

性格是自己的，我也不方便多说

但我希望你们知道，请珍惜眼前的，别把一切当成理所当然

并为所有人都一样能接受

忍也是由分界线的一旦不知不觉中过线了

突如其来的暴风雪将会发生

坦白说，这次的旅行，我一点儿都不开心

你们把我当成什么了。是刚认识的朋友吗？

自己玩自己的而我却只跟了信原

那是时候请问这旅行的目的

不告诉我是为了给我时间与他相处

那你们真的很不了解我拜托他帮我举办

是为你和你们多点回忆而并为不开心

可惜，当我回家后打开行李发现“不开心”被带回来了

我也曾告诉你们我不喜欢因为一个“他” 把你们扔下

当天发生什么结果我是被逼跟他的

并不是说跟他是委屈了我而只是不喜欢为了一个人扔下朋友

打球游戏我不懂而我一直却在房里睡觉

我不知道。不想去问了，如果我问了，我们也许会打仗了

我横不得赶快回家，顿时与你们相处，压力也越来越大

鼻涕眼泪一大把

如果姐妹是这么做那就当我笨对这一窍不通

to be continue

THAT'S MY STORIES IN A YEAR

2011-01-01T22:17:00.006+08:00

honestly, i don't even know how to start my stories one by one. so i'll just write whatever thing in my mind right now. so yea, the first thing i could say is my ex. although i had broke up with him for around two years, during all these time, i thought i've forgotten everything about him. but all the stories keep appear in my mind. and i always thought that there's a chance for me to be back with him. finally i realize that i m the one who always think too much. whenever i on facebook, the forst thing i'll do is check him profile cause i wish to know what things in his mind, and i care about it. sometimes i feel him, but lastly he told me he fall for another girl. i could says that everything are complicated. i can't even explain. there're another stupid thing that i did for him. if you're my dears, i'm sure that you knows i don't even like sport at all. but just because of him, trying to just look at him or talk to him, i forced myself to join the same club for him, forced myself to love that sport. lastly, only i realize that what i did are useless, he don't even care me at all, he cares for his "someone" i think. i think i am seriously a dumb ass. i'm not trying to blame you or what, but i'm sure without him, i won't like studies and being mature at all. i'm glad that i could nearly spend my high school life with you. PS: i could say i m still care about what you think about me. i know i m stupid, but i don't know why. maybe i used to it.

next, it'll be another stories with a guy. he's a cute guy that i had meet. there's some sweet memories that happen between me and him. and we nearly together. but somehow he keep giving some reason. so sometimes in my mind, i just wanna to say that, if you don't love someone, please don't give he/she a hope. you'll hurt him/her badly. that's exactly what i feel when he told me all those reasons. owh! there's one time you text me asked m i angry you, and i told you "NOPE" right? now, it's the time for me to be honest with ya. actually, i am a bit mad about you but what i can do, i can just to accept it. at that moment my heart was like *OUCH* , it's hurt. since that time, i didn't really trust "love". it's a hard game for me, and i think i can't stand with it. sorry guy. and the card that you made for me, it's like a important in my life. but i really don't know for you what does it means la. but i hope you appreciate it. PS: tak care, atleast you're still important for me and we have the chance to be together and the timing is incorrect, so we miss it . maybe you'll just forget me one day, but i won't just forget you easily.

3rd, don't care what previous thing had happen. what i can say now is i got my boy. FINALLY! that's what i keep hear from other to me and also him. do you guys tried to get someone for 700plus days? seldom happen right. yea! my boy is the one there for me. in my memories, we always having argument, misunderstanding, or even sometimes i hate him. don't care what ever thing i did to him, he didn't even try to leave me alone. i even angry with without reason, he'll still be the one who try to cheer me up. there's seiously a long stories between me and my boy. sometimes i really feel guilty that what i had did to you, and even the ways i treat you now. for you guys, if one day your girlfriend treat you so, what will you going to do to her? owh! one more thing. i rejected him for thousand times, he still care and take care me lots. hmm! i'll try to post more about my boy. actually there's a video that he did for me, that's all our stories inside the video. heart. PS: thanks babe! love ya lots

besides all these relationship problem, there's problems happen in my friendship too. i can't explain what had happen. but i have words for them. please wait for it patiently

A NEW STARTING

2011-01-01T22:04:00.001+08:00

i thought my blog is dead

but who knows? today i going to start blogging again

my blog is dead for around half year

and i didn't really go and update it

and now, i going to starts my stories here again

i just finished reading my previous post,

and suddenly the previous feeling comes back to me

i remember what had happen during all these year

how i fall for a guy, how i miss a guy, how crazy m i for a guy?

and now i could say

EVERYTHING IS PAST

now, i got my new life.

i going to start my stories one by one soon

2010-06-16T19:17:00.002+08:00

PROMISES?,
why everyone likes to make promises but lastly they gonna to break it?
then what's the purpose for you to make a promise.
you know what?
atthe moment when you make the promise,
the person will fully believe with it.
but lastly, you break it again
when you break it,
you already pushing someone down from heaven to the hell!
do you get what i mean?
because of that,
you did make the person can't forget the moment when you promise at all
sometimes, it also make a person can't stand anymore
IT'S HURT.
do know know how funny and how dumb when a person,
waiting for you to achieve your promises?

having some discussion with sisters
it did make me going to kill people
and what, we met the same problem
what i wanna to say is
"just stay up and shut up when you can achieve what you going to promise"

this post doesn't aiming anyone
if you think i m talking about you, then that's YOU!
it is even about about myself?

与情绝缘

2010-06-16T00:51:00.002+08:00

与情绝缘正如朋友说的
无论友情亲情爱情都一点都不实际
一点都不可靠让自己迷失自己

但最总不能绝缘的是舞蹈
唯有舞蹈让我感觉到自己
好像好像回到当初的自己
陶醉在舞蹈世界当中

2010-06-16T00:36:00.002+08:00

短短的时间内为何一切一切的变化这么大
是因为假期呆在家没与世界接触吗？
我发现所有所以为的当真的曾经的
统统都像乌云一样消失了

或许幻想能满足暂时性的满足
但它却是恶梦的开始
也就此因为这样我的恶梦也不曾停顿过
一连串的伤痛失眠统统出现
多次想过 “与情绝缘” 但一次又一次的不忍心
哎我不需要解释不需要‘借口’
只希望世界有奇迹
一分钟一小时一天一个月一年
我都不介意对我而言
我并不在乎天长地久只在乎曾经拥有
也许此刻幻想又再次开始了

2010-06-16T00:23:00.001+08:00

sometimes when you're not in your own country
you are with someone that you totally don't know
you will be more enjoy
cause all problems will just stay in your own place
they won't be following you to another place :)

2010-06-15T21:54:00.004+08:00

it's hard for us to take a picture together

and what,that's the only picture that i took with my sisters

since i leave da zhi, i didn't really contact with them

sometimes i did feel that i m left out

but what, no choice, who called me to quit da zhi?

(regret)

back to topic, i just chatting with them

guess what? we are chatting about GUYS

but we are not chatting about how leng zai are they?how good are they?

we are chatting about, HOW GUYS HURT US.

omg! i found out that, we nearly meet the same thing

i don't feel like typing out what are we discuss, how hurt are we

but i think we will be strong

(girls, remember the slogan "QIANG")

seriously, kinda pissed off when discuss about it

PS: sis, remember no matter how, i will still be with you guys♥

*it reminds me about him again, and i still don't feel like give up!

2010-06-08T12:03:00.001+08:00

now having holiday
what i can say now is,
my holidays are full! :/
i wish to have more holidays!!

2010-06-03T16:29:00.003+08:00

回忆对我来说总是美好的
但有时它却成了我的致命伤口
或许把所有回忆给忘了对我对你却是好处
我想是时候这么做
虽然我不想但我必须
不想它成为我和你的烦恼

*心中的某个角落仍有保存你存在的地方

2010-06-03T16:19:00.001+08:00

要是时光能倒流的话
我是不会选折回现在的生活！:)

2010-06-03T15:06:00.002+08:00

很久没把自己的心情给写上去
其实该从何处说起
一大堆不开心烦恼总是说不出口
想找人来说诉往往向电话一看
仍找不到适合的人选
顿时脑海就浮现 “ 算了吧！”
可是有时却是有话难言
最近竟然毫无原因的发脾气
对自己也开始厌倦了
不想说话也不想再发泄了
在嘴角缝着两条线
狠狠地往上拉那笑容就永远不会消失了

2010-05-17T15:18:00.002+08:00

exam is start
but what , i didn't study at all
it is because i was keep busy with citrawarna stuff
and lastly i got high fever for 4 days
last saturday, i forced to be in hospital for one night
i hate being in the hospital :/
besides that, today!
i need to go to hospital again
cause not fuly recovered
luckily this time, i do not need to stay in hospital anymore
PHOBIA!! :(

start from tomottow having citrawarna practice until 7
having practice even exam?
no choice. cause i like it!

*both of my hand got two holes :/

2010-04-05T18:58:00.001+08:00

i m damn lost now! :(

2010-03-28T00:22:00.003+08:00

as what expect, dreams are always dream
no matter how hard i pray, how much i miss you
that's just i m the only one who think about it
and what i did, it's just a nonsense for everyone
my mood changed very fast today
from full of hopes, happy and excited
it immediately changes to disappointing, down and upset
yea, i know! i m the one who expect everything highly
and lastly what i got it's just nothing
i admit it's my wrong, it's not his fault
but what my mood is still down

sorry for being moody when you called me
it's not your fault, it's my fault
cause i think i m the only one who expect everything highly

2010-03-27T16:43:00.001+08:00

what i dream it's never comes true
and i think today i going to be disappointed again
=/

2010-03-26T22:56:00.003+08:00

i really don't know what's wrong with me
my results, my singing skill, my keyboard skill. my friendship and more
is getting worst and worst. WTH that i had did?
can someone tell me what's wrong with me?
NO!! NO WAY!
i don't want all my things getting worst, i doesn't wish to lost them

the CHS idol is coming soon, and you know what right now?
i have no confident to join it at all!
I AM USELESS!!

can someone help me?
i really feel like crying it loud now!!
:/

BE FINE SOON! :D

2010-03-24T22:05:00.002+08:00

suddenly i realize that i m kinda emotional nowadays
5 minutes before this i was damn happy,
5 minutes after this i was kinda down
wanna to have a sleep now

reason WHY? remains secret

*aikkx

2010-03-24T20:45:00.001+08:00

i think it's the time for me to stop thinking the nonsense
i don't care anything more what i care now is you
the one and only

*breathing*

2010-03-23T20:22:00.002+08:00

as i had promised not to give up and not to lost my confident, i will do so
as what you had promised me, i hope you will do so too
really having a great night yesterday
i enjoyed that moment. it really cheer me up
i did tried to talk with many people just to be happier but failed
you know? you're the one who really make me happy when i m sad
you even make me smile when i m sleeping

right now, i miss that moment. hope the time can just stopped at that time
just wanna to enjoy the time that i can really spend with you
♥

ILY

2010-03-23T20:04:00.002+08:00

once again, having results problem
*be tough be tough be tough*
just kinda disappointed with myself
not happy for the whole day already
no way! no point for me to emo!!
as what my mum told me today, doesn't need to compare any results with others
just try your best that's enough
she gave me an example
" like your brother no matter how hard he study he can't get a good result
but your younger brother without study he still can get a good result
and you, you are the type that need to study extremely hard to just a better result
since young you did study a lot, wanna to get a results but what?
you are different with your younger brother, you study hard just to get a better result not the good one"
i understand about it! that's why i keep blaming myself having an useless brain
my younger brother having exam after holiday
but guess what he did during the whole week holiday?
he is just playing the computer non-stop
for me? few weeks before exam, i did start study
but lastly, i have no eyes to see my results

now, i don't care about it
but why? the results are still going through my mind
*breath in breath out breath in breath out*
i think i will be fine soon

2010-03-22T21:43:00.002+08:00

毫无重点的伤心心酸是了为什么？

2010-03-22T19:58:00.000+08:00

i m confusing right now
i don't know that did i do something wrongly
i just hope i could get a truth

but i hope all these thing is me the one who think too much only

2010-03-22T19:48:00.002+08:00

i have no any idea that why am i so useless
i had really tried my best in my exam
but i really can't get the result that i hope
i even going to failed one of my paper
how much time i had spend, how much effort i had put
how much night i spend just to study, how i suffer just to study
i could say the whole week i had a badly headache
but i still put my effort just to get a good result not to disappointed my parent
NOW, my result is just like an empty paper, it's useless the result was worst
WHY? what happen to me? and now i can't even cheer up myself
i had changed a lot just to study and get a good result compare to form 3
lastly, what i get? i can't even have face to faced my result
i really don't know what to do.
why am i having such a useless brain.

ps: i think i will be fine soon!

2010-03-21T01:20:00.002+08:00

do you know how's the feeling when you feel you're in heaven?
do you know how's the feeling when you feel you're in hell?
do you know how's the feeling when you feel you're in heaven and hell?

when you're in heaven you can feel very sweet
when you're in hell you can feel that you're suffer
when you're in heaven and hell you can feel both

what now?
now i feel kinda suffer but at the same time i feel sweet too
i wish that i m important to someone but i don't know am i?
he promised to text me but he failed
i didn't blame him, maybe he's busy there's no time for me

i purposely make myself fully crazy tired just to stop thinking about you
i m success! i really did make myself very tired
since he promised, i will try not to sleep tonight
although i m tired, i will just be at side my phone and keep waiting♥

(ps: i m really very tired now)

2010-03-20T12:22:00.005+08:00

early morning without his message feel kinda lifeless
yesterday night, i nearly can't fall asleep
although i m tired, but i wouldn't close my eyes at all
what going through my mind is he and he the one and only
OMG! i really can't imagine that i m crazy for him
i think a message from him will just make me hyper the whole day
oh my buddha! i miss him a lot ♥

by the way, having an unhappy morning

(once again, NO ASKING!)

2010-03-19T23:00:00.003+08:00

就这样今早把我吵醒的讯息
彻彻底底地把我从梦境中带到了现实生活
它让我闭不起眼睛来只是眼睁睁地看着手心里的电话
汗珠一滴一滴地滴着简讯声不停不停地响起
这封封简讯让脸上的笑容合不起面孔也渐渐泛红
努力工作只为了一顿饭一场戏
约会旅行临时失败并非我不想而是有课
心意心领了但答应下次旅行一定成功
最后 “工作” 也停了美梦
好想好想听着那熟悉的声音
哄我睡觉再次在梦境中相约

（看了这短篇，请别问东问西，后果自负！！）

2010-03-18T21:52:00.005+08:00

during one week holiday i just stay at home and sleep
finally i went out with my babes today! ♥
nearly crazy during sing k with them
laughing non-stop, playing non-stop, crazy non-stop
that's what normally we did!
wanna to see the special us?
ahaha! too bad, you can't see it!
you just only can see it in the karaoke box!

*hoong

*rong

*ning

*june

*lin

after sing k, we went to watch movie
"Alice in the Wonderland"
once again! we laughing non-stop in the cinema

then we to buy a high heel shoes for june as birthday present
:D

*take1

*take2

*group photo

*the guys
nothing much i can say about today! just one word to describe all
"ENJOY! ♥"

now, i wanna to wish
1) Huoy Wenn (18/03):

happy birthday my dear! meet ya since primary school. and now we are still same class! :) finally you're now 17! big girl already. enjoy your birthday ya

2) June Hwee (19/3):

hey darling! happy birthday ya! i hope you really enjoyed the outing today and also your birthday present. hope you like it. :D i think both of us are dumb. cause last year only we knew that actually we had meet each other since young! ahaha. thanks for you, because always being crazy, laughing with me everyday! i really enjoy, i enjoy that sitting with you too! hey girl you're now 17 already, big girl already o! LOVE YA ♥ Happy Bithday! :D

2010-03-17T20:46:00.013+08:00

2 Years Anniversary

two years ago, 17 of march until 20 of march
due to a performance I manage to meet some friends
they are from Melaka and Sarawak
i have no idea to say about it
but the pictures will show everything to you

pictures:

our group picture

melaka friends

sarawak friends

crazy!! xD

sarawak babes

wth?! play inside the lift

melaka babes

rumor boyfriend. =.=

contact list

after few months, we still managed to meet up

*sarawak

*melaka

words to say:
melaka babes: hmm! i m really happy to meet you guys! and i knew that most of you got a good results in SPM! good job! oh yea! i remembered that day we went to your rooms and played true or dare. and also we went to pui yuee's house live together! :) now funny are you guys, how cute are you guys. Do you guys know it? i really wish that we can meet up again and hang out together! Once i said hang out, remember that day what happen in the curve? everyone legs cramp! ahaha! So babes, when you guys got come to KL just text me, or i will try to find a trip to Melaka! ♥
sarawak babes: hey people! I am glad to meet you guys! i really very enjoy to communicate with you guys by different way. it really enjoyed and fun to learn from you all! thanks for teaching us patiently. but one thing that disappointing you guys, which is, i totally forget how to do all those movement already! but i think we still can keep contact with you guys through internet right? ahaha :D

*guess what?! enjoy it! :)

(by the way, forgive me, cause i think there will be a lot of mistake in my post, you know what? cause my english is BAD! so just forgive me)

2010-03-17T13:06:00.001+08:00

since i had premised,i will do so!
but what? i regret that i promised!
:(

by the way, i can't wait for the outing with my babes tomorrow
ahaha, you know what?
i love my babes! <3

2010-03-16T21:20:00.000+08:00

cute right?
people who came to my house before,
i think you will know how cute and how funny is him!
:)
YEA!
now what i going to post over here is
"my cute LUCKY had passed away last week"
it's kinda sad and boring without you
Rest In Peace,Lucky!
<3

2010-03-15T19:59:00.000+08:00

原来许多完美结局需要付出很多代价的
但付出很多代价并不一定得到完美结局

柔美的音乐从而中穿过
脑子里渐渐浮现出生活中曾经地回忆
心情的开始从高潮渐渐地来到了低潮

当时的承诺都是谎言
当时的回忆都是一场梦
曾经地答应原来是敷衍
曾经的甜美都是欺骗

一切一切在心中只留下那伤痕
努力的弥补只是一种样子
其实法子一点都无法弥碎裂的伤势
麻醉是让自己开心一点
努力催眠自己那二十四小时里睡那二十三小时

2010-03-05T19:27:00.000+08:00

there's something happen again
i guess i know what had happen already

hey girl( unknown name)
just cheer up, i know that i m still young,
and i miss a lot of things what u had said
but i wanna to let you know
just remember me and i will be there for you
i know how the hurt feeling
<3

2010-02-12T22:38:00.000+08:00

hey people,it's Chinese New Year now
this year, the valentine day is drop on the new year
and i need to go back to Johor
what i can say is
my new year will be bored
it will really bored without you! :(
how ever, i dont feel like going back
cause i miss KL
i miss 5s1
but who cares, just enjoy the days!

PS: suddenly i miss 5s1 so much

2010-01-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

that's a sunset picture
what a sunset mean?
for me, i think it means a new day is coming soon
yea! that's what my feeling right now
i wanna to have a new day without any problem
just having my life happily
i wish to smile but i fail
i m forcing my tears drop flowing out from my eyes!

2010-01-03T19:00:00.000+08:00

just now i went to had lunch with my host family at Jaya 33
they came to Malaysia to had a family vacation
so, they decided to meet my family over here
this a picture that we took after the lunch

then they came to my house
*these are my so called siblings*

She's my sister

TOMOKO!! =)

and he's my brother

SOPPEI! =D

and this is my host family! =)

thanks for all my babes!

2010-01-02T12:57:00.000+08:00

thanks han yong :)

thanks sukesh! =D

thanks chia zheng,sukesh =)

wao, it's from zheng! thanks.

I LOVE IT!!! it's from manie, chia zheng, shao wei! <3

from mon yun! thanks my flirting partner!!=)

thanks xin yuan! =D

it's from YING!!!!!!!!! arggg

but i love them! thanks! <3

gosh!! it's from MELAKA!

thanks jeff!!

thanks yong ching =)

WORDS THAT I WANNA TO EXPRESS OUT:
han yong: you're the first people who give me the present! i appreciate it so much! thanks a lot <3
sukesh: the ever ever ever people who give a lot of SURPRISE for me! and they surprise me! <3
chia zheng: the youngest friend who very close with us! thanks for the card! luckily i didn't cry for it! thanks. <3
manie: the funniest people and cute people that i had meet! meet him from "thanatos" xD thanks, manie! <3
shao wei: shao!! you really make me cry on the spot because of that! but what i wanna to tell you is I LOVE YOU! <3
mon yun: my flirting partner, how long didn't we contact?! but not bad, you remember my birthday! thanks <3
xin yuan: hey, honestly, i know what you wanna to give me before my birthday,so i didn't get shocked when u gave it to me, but thanks! <3
xue ying: your surprise is damn surprise! i almost get angry! cause i thought you forget about me. =( but who knows, at the dinner, and my tears!! but i really heart it! thanks my YYY!! <3
jeff: you know how touch to received a present from Melaka? you will know when you received it, or you try it! thanks a lot jeff!! and i m glad to have you as friends, i think we had meet each other for around1 year plus? going to be 2 years soon! <3
yong ching: what i can say is thanks a lot!! ahaha! but honestly, i still haven open it! =p <3
Lenny: the first who wish me in sms! thanks ya <3
chen hoong: the second person who wish me! before that, thanks for everything when i need a pair of ears! and my birthday that day!! <3>
guo unn: you're in the top 3 wei!! ahaha! thanks for everytime my party you also came. different people,different celebration right? =) <3
sukesh:sorry, you're not in the top 3. but thanks!! <3
xin yuan: thanks again! <3
shao wei: ahaha! my babe who keep wishing me to be old. Learn driving together next year. <3>
diing yienn: you're in the TOP 10!! ahaha, thanks yienn! <3
mon yun: thanks babe!! <3
june hwee: my caring babe, thanks for remember my birthday wei! <3
jeff: the ever sweet friends from melaka!! ahaha!! <3
kelvin: thanks for the wish! but you remember my age wrongly!! =( <3
han yong: thanks again! i will be waiting for the cards! <3
cheng en: ahaha!! jiao lian, i remember yours first! but thanks ya! <3
manie: the people that i always wanna to push him down wish me. thanks ya! <3
xin er: hey sa por! thanks for the wishes! <3
jeffrey: hey my senior, thanks ya! thanks for the wishes!! <3
shi ning: ahaha! u can't hate me this year, cause i know that's you. thanks ya! <3
yu zun: thanks zun, it's sweet. =D <3
kwan seng: the one wjho bully me as my present! but still thanks a lot! <3
jian yuan: thanks! another melaka sweet friend! <3
chia zheng:thanks again, my small little boy boy! <3
chun huei:ahaha!! my cousin remember my birthday this year!! first time FIRST TIME WEI!! <3
kar jun: hey, thanks for all the sweet messages! thanks! <3
some melaka friends: thanks for all my sweet melaka babes! i love you guys! <3

*ps: there's still got a few of them, but sorry, i didn't save your number, so i can't list down your name. BUT STILL THANKS A LOT! <3

and also people who wish me in face book! THANKS <3

HEY PEOPLE, I REALLY HAPPY TO HAVE YOU GUYS AS FRIENDS!
I APRRECIATE YOU GUYS! WHAT I WANNA TO SAY,
YOU ALL ARE MY PART YOU LIFE!
I LOVE YOU ALL!!

2010-01-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

2010 is a new year
new year,new day, new ME
anything doesn't good in 2009
just stay away from me
i don't want to be suffer anymore
i feel that I M OLD!!!
so i just wanna to enjoy my life right now!
i got a lot of things to talk to my babes,
i wanna to post everything out!
but sorry, i doesn't have the time
and school reopen soon
just remember A NEW YEAR, A NEW DAY!

*HEY,that's how stupid i am!! xD
I LOVE JACE! <3

2009-12-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

we are just like a family
i had spend my whole holidays with you guys!
my "birthday" party, i feel happy that most of you were attend
the sweet memories!
besides that, when i received the presents
my tear just flow out immediately
<3

*more thingy will be update soon. i m lazy =p

2009-12-04T22:49:00.000+08:00

3 of december

firstly, i wanna to wish someone
she's SIM KA YEAN
i met her during form 1 cause we were in the same class
and this year, i same class with her too!
i m happy that she is 16 right now!
so what i going to do now is,
i wanna to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY,YEAN!

4 of december

now i going to wish someone too
he's CHYE HAN YONG
he's a really cute and friendly guy
i just met him few months ago
and i m gld to have him as my friend
yea! after this year,
i don't think that there will be a chance for me to meet him again
not really no chance, just hardly
so for now, i think,
i going to shout out loud
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,HAN YONG

REALLY HAPPY FOR ME TO MEET YA =D

我爱他

2009-12-03T22:17:00.001+08:00

他的镜框留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一(如果还有)遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

2009-11-30T20:15:00.000+08:00

when for practice today,
it's quite fun
we used two days to learn finish the dance
it's quite enjoyed also
=)

(i don't know how to describe the practice today,
just one word ENJOYED)

Hey friend, wanna to drop u that
today i saw her n him together! so yea ~

♥

2009-11-28T20:31:00.000+08:00

since coach not around today,
so i had skipped my volleyball practice
and i went for dancing practice
met two new friends over there
"Guo Unn" and "a guy that i don't know his name"
ahaha

we started our practice around 8.45
the move "1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8"
"1,2,5,6" no need jump
"3,4,7,8" need to jump
ahaha, Guo Unn the one who say that
after that, Brian taught us some "new" steps
we used quite a long time to memorized it and correct it
*and now my back is pain =( *
we having a break around 12 something
after our break, we practiced again
but i think everyone is getting lazy! xD

i think the dance quite fun also
cause i didn't dance this kind of dancing before
although i had dance a lot since young
and it's still new for me

♥

2009-11-18T16:00:00.000+08:00

finally our performance is over
just reached home
wao!
thanks for those non- k.kebudayaan members,
for being crew and chorus
we did our best in the competition
such a good memories with you guys

thanks a lot to zhi qi
accompany at the backstage
if not, i going to faint immediately =D

more pictures will be upload soon
tired now1 good night

2009-11-09T19:46:00.000+08:00

went tuition today last minute
so called can say skipped my practice
went tuition by run under the rain alone
actually it's nice, whole body are wet
=)

hmm, during tuition
wondering about something else
so the speed that i digested everything a bit slow
the girl beside me said that I'm blur
and then she said
"It's good to be blur in life,
rather that your mind don't be too clear,
and better don't know everything so clear"
I agree with her
i wish i always be blur
I don't want to know everything too clearly
once we know too clear
and the final answer wasn't that we wanted
it will be sad or else
so it's better to be blur
=)

owh! yesterday pool party
its awesome, i enjoyed it! xD
<3

2009-11-08T03:23:00.000+08:00

7/11
when i was young,i always forget his birthday
seven eleven is used for me to remember his birthday
therefore now when i see 7 eleven i remember him
he is my BROTHER

Mr. Lim Chun Xian
getting older and older already
be more mature la. =p
wanna to wish you "Happy Birthday"

hey, i m glad that you're my brother

although we always fight with each

but i know you very sayang me one

i think when i was in form 3

and i having some "problem"

that day u tum me

and you sent me a message that night

you said

" don't be sad anymore.

remember, no matter how,you got me,

any problem i will be there for you"

*touching*

i cried when i saw this message

wanna to say that

" heart ya,xian"

2009-11-07T11:02:00.000+08:00

woohoo!!
crazy time
we took pictures on the graduation day in k.kebudayaan room
=D

in uniform:

changed

numbering

1

2

3

4

5

6

7

8

9

10

11

jump shot

crazy-ing

yeng?!

38?!

tall to short?

*sorry if those pictures are too lala
cause there're some, i also can't stand for it!
xD
all these shao wei's idea! =p

2009-11-07T10:31:00.000+08:00

this few days,i feel lazy to think what to write
my brain lack of idea
can't squeeze anything out from my brain

well, now i going to update it
4/11 was the graduation day + Datin Lim's retirement
there were some performances from form 5 and upper 6 classes
i saw the form 5 one but i had missed the form 6 performance
but i think they did great =)
and their videos, it's nice!

that day i just got chance to take pictures with some of them
others i have no chance, cause i left my camera at the room
but once i took the camera down,everyone were back =(

this few days, i feel lazy to update my blog
every time i sign in
but lastly i end up with i quit the window

xin yuan

zhen nam* 3 years old kid

han yong*1

han yong *2

kar jun*1

kar jun* 2

kwan seng

shuk pui

li chen

did some cards for friends.
owh! i love the expression when kar jun received it
it looks damn funny =)
well, i just managed to took one of them with my cards.

at night,i received a message from Midori
i love her message ,it's sweet and nice

spot on midori

hey, midori, i think i meet ya when i was in form 2
met you for around 3 years,
and we had dance together for a number of times.
I'm proud to say that i got you as friends
every funny pose or stupid thingy
that you accompany me to do,
I'll always remember
heart ya much
<3

2009-10-27T22:46:00.001+08:00

i just received some news
i think for me,its a bad news
but i think for others, it does mean anything
"THANATOS" teather competition coming soon
therefore,i need to change every tuition time
skip every thingy that i want
*deep breath*
a big decision! =(

so now, my tuition will all be on weekend
everyday after school stay back for practice

2009-10-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

i like unhappy again right now
why?
because,
first,i worry about my friend
second, i don't like to explain the reason
third, i m confused

*deep breath*
i m fine again
=D

2009-10-23T21:21:00.000+08:00

since school reopen until now
nothing much special happened
we almost got all our exam paper already
just left some
hmm, i think i had improve for most of the subjects
but it still haven reach what i hope
never mind, what i can do right now is work hard

actually i m quite confused right now
what i wish now is don't bother everything around me
all those thingy make me so unhappy
i admit that I'M NAUGHTY! =(

2009-10-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

wondering
i think i feel nervous right now!
xD

2009-10-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

form 1

form 2

form 3

form 4

a gift from god
i can share everything with her
like my happiness, sadness, craziness and more
sometimes my mood had changed because of her
when she's sad,i m sad too
when she's happy,i m happy too

she's the one that i had met during form 1
both of us getting closer and closer
from a normal friend become like sisters
we chit chat a lot, talk a lot of lame jokes
although we are very close,
but we had some argument before
during that period, our friendship wasn't that close as last time
but luckily, now, we still close =D
GUESS WHO?
she's TAN XUE YING.

there's some pictures that we took since form 2
(cause form 1 we aren't that close yet)

now, i wanna to wish her HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY, XUE YING!
enjoy your birthday.
there's more words that i wanna to tell ya,
so wait for my card, what i had promised ya!
xD

2009-10-19T12:15:00.000+08:00

the first outing after my exam
me and ying went Sunway for a walk
actually i wish to celebrate her birthday
but lastly, we just went there
spending our time with laugh and lame jokes

during the photo session,
we did a lot of stupid thingy inside
and i enjoyed it <3
after the photo session,
once we out from the shop,
we met a lot of catholic high school students
when we saw them, we laugh until non-stop

we had laughing non-stop for around two hours i think
we really tired
then we decided to have a sit
hard of us to decided something,
at last, we use scissors, paper, stone to help us decided
(did u guys saw someone standing middle of the road
and played scissors, paper, stone
just to decided what ice-cream to eat before?
we were the one who did it. xD)
after finished, we trying to do some stupid thing
but we failed

we ate our "lunch" around 5
some funny thing happened during it

that's a guy called Raymond came towards us
and said
"hi girls, my name is Raymond.
You're very pretty. Can i do your friend? "
and our respond in our mind is
"what the hell?! weird guy"
both of us keep laughing non-stop
and no one bother him
and he just went away
LOL!

the last two photo when we are waiting for my mum.
and we end up our day with a funny look.

THE END!

2009-10-19T12:11:00.000+08:00

i promised to finish reading twilight
but for me who does like English
finish it like need my life
no matter how, trying to finish it
just only finished the first chapter

2009-10-18T10:00:00.000+08:00

its quite moody now
suffering about something else
i love something but now i choose to give up
i wondering
Is my decision correct?
can someone tell me YEA ?
a lot of them had told me the decision i made i correct
them support me to do the decision after hearing the reason
and they advised me don't think other thingy else anymore
but i feel guilty!
suffer~

='(

2009-10-16T09:53:00.000+08:00

during PMR holiday,me and some of my primary friends
went back xie lao shi there,
which is my primary tuition center
before we went there, we went for mid valley for a lunch

guys were thinking what to eat

after lunch, we girls sat Angeline's car while guys took taxi to Old Town
although we girls sat Angeline's car, we still late
the guys waited for us at Secret Recipes
*ahh!! so guilty , called them out to have a gathering who knows,they still need to took taxi to Old Town
after bought a cake,we girls had decided,
we walked to tuition center while guys sat Angeline's car
*hmm!! what a good idea, ahah

when we reached there, we chit-chat a lot! (and also photos)

when we were young, we always look forward to 4 o'clock

owh, teacher said that after our SPM,
we can go there for work,
hmm, i think i might going there for work hehe
everything over there didn't really changed much
the thingy that had change the most is WE HAD GROW UP =D

group photo

candid 1

us =D

END!

2009-10-09T10:57:00.000+08:00

yerr
my sony phone bully me
xD
after send every single message,
i need to chatge battery one time
thats mean that
i need 24 hour stay beside it
ahhaa

today is friday
actually until now
i didn't study much!
not really in the mood to study
i wish that i can keep playing

2009-10-07T10:28:00.000+08:00

i realize that this world not many people are perfect
what i noticed is,
almost everyone beside me getting hurt from others
but i can't do anything else
i just only can borrow a pair of ears for them
other than that, must depends on them
what i wish is
everyone beside me must always be happy
must be smart also
i will try my best to cheer you guys up

2009-10-05T15:57:00.000+08:00

3 days more!! jia you
exam going to finish!! =D
want to go out and play
ahaha!!

2009-10-05T14:49:00.000+08:00

few days didn't blog already
=p

last saturday went for a wedding dinner
actually its quite bored
but me and my bothers syok sendiri there
and now only i know
LIM's family having the same problem
which is like to syok sendiri and
everything we said are lame
ahaha, thats what i noticed
enjoyed having fun with my cousin sister and also brother

pictures time,

yea,i end up my day with this pic

2009-09-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

slept at 4 yesterday night
woke up at 7 this morning
what i can say now is i m tired
hehe

back to the main topic!
few hours later, its someone's birthday
now i would like to use this chance to say
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY MON YUN!"

she is the one who i met when i was form 3
my flirting partner =)
i remembered during form 3
we always did those stupid thingy and we laugh a lot
i enjoyed it and i miss it
every time there's something happen or when i need a pair of ears
she always besides of me
seriously, i m glad to have you as my friend
ahh!! not friend, is best friend! =D

its quite upset that i can't go out and celebrate with her
last year, when my birthday, she celebrated with me
but i can't celebrate with her
WHY?
because of EXAM!!
=(

some pictures:

besides that, really thanks for that day chatting with me
when i was not in the mood
now, i m okay! thanks

what i can say at the last is
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MON YUN
i always here for you =)
(full of emotional one )

2009-09-25T13:09:00.000+08:00

what i had did during my holidays?
okayy, now i tell u guys
1) study
2) do revision
3)tuition
( = =" all related to study)
except that what did i do?
hmm
nothing else =D

besides that,the whole holiday
i slept around 4 or 5
woke up around 9
lol!
because of what?!
STUDY

*i didn't really enjoyed the tuition that day =(

2009-09-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

sorry sista!
i had forgot your birthday,
therefore i didn't wish ya on that day
gosh! feel that i damn useless wei
even my sis birthday also can forget
ahh!!! tching, scold me!!

by the way,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY,
WAN TCHING

word to ya:
sis, i don't know how to express my feeling
just feel that i really damn bad la
your birthday i also can forget =(
already almost 9 months didn't i contact with three of you
i always say that I MISS YOU GUYS
but i didn't take action, like meet you guys and else
BUT THEN I REALLY MEAN THAT
i really miss you guys
i hope you don't mind,forgive me,mind?
I LOVE SISTA!! <3

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AGAIN!