as what expect, dreams are always dream
no matter how hard i pray, how much i miss you
that's just i m the only one who think about it
and what i did, it's just a nonsense for everyone
my mood changed very fast today
from full of hopes, happy and excited
it immediately changes to disappointing, down and upset
yea, i know! i m the one who expect everything highly
and lastly what i got it's just nothing
i admit it's my wrong, it's not his fault
but what my mood is still down


sorry for being moody when you called me
it's not your fault, it's my fault
cause i think i m the only one who expect everything highly

what i dream it's never comes true
and i think today i going to be disappointed again
=/

i really don't know what's wrong with me
my results, my singing skill, my keyboard skill. my friendship and more
is getting worst and worst. WTH that i had did?
can someone tell me what's wrong with me?
NO!! NO WAY!
i don't want all my things getting worst, i doesn't wish to lost them

the CHS idol is coming soon, and you know what right now?
i have no confident to join it at all!
I AM USELESS!!


can someone help me?
i really feel like crying it loud now!!
:/

BE FINE SOON! :D

suddenly i realize that i m kinda emotional nowadays
5 minutes before this i was damn happy,
5 minutes after this i was kinda down
wanna to have a sleep now




reason WHY? remains secret



*aikkx

i think it's the time for me to stop thinking the nonsense
i don't care anything more what i care now is you
the one and only



*breathing*

as i had promised not to give up and not to lost my confident, i will do so
as what you had promised me, i hope you will do so too
really having a great night yesterday
i enjoyed that moment. it really cheer me up
i did tried to talk with many people just to be happier but failed
you know? you're the one who really make me happy when i m sad
you even make me smile when i m sleeping

right now, i miss that moment. hope the time can just stopped at that time
just wanna to enjoy the time that i can really spend with you
♥

ILY

once again, having results problem
*be tough be tough be tough*
just kinda disappointed with myself
not happy for the whole day already
no way! no point for me to emo!!
as what my mum told me today, doesn't need to compare any results with others
just try your best that's enough
she gave me an example
" like your brother no matter how hard he study he can't get a good result
but your younger brother without study he still can get a good result
and you, you are the type that need to study extremely hard to just a better result
since young you did study a lot, wanna to get a results but what?
you are different with your younger brother, you study hard just to get a better result not the good one"
i understand about it! that's why i keep blaming myself having an useless brain
my younger brother having exam after holiday
but guess what he did during the whole week holiday?
he is just playing the computer non-stop
for me? few weeks before exam, i did start study
but lastly, i have no eyes to see my results

now, i don't care about it
but why? the results are still going through my mind
*breath in breath out breath in breath out*
i think i will be fine soon