曾经的白痴，好玩，叽喳，三八，我好想念。

放下心烦，勇于踏出这一步，
快快乐乐的做自己吧！
:)

Relationship

After my last relationship, I don't really understand what's the real meaning of relationship.

WHAT

IS 

RELATIONSHIP?

noooooooooo! i dont know!

For me, I think relationship is fragile. The promises can break easily.

Commitment is need but who knows end up you might be get complain by the partner.

Maybe at this moment, I dont know how to believe on any relationship.

I feel that everything is just a lie.

There're people who make promises, but as time pass, the promises no longer promises

The friendship or "feelings" no longer as close as before

Everything will be change over time.

Maybe at this moment, I just need some break.

just leave me alone, I will be fine.

I'm just tired.

phewwwww! just finish reading my very first journal in UK.

but seriously, since I'm in UNMC, when i wrote my report, 

I didnt really read the journals all one by one, I will just summarize.

But today, I really finished words by words. I'm proud of myself.

*lol! I know there's nothing to proud of, but still, I feel proud about myself*

okay fine! it's over. just let me have some updates about myself.

It's about 19 to 20 days since my last post? okay, I cant really remember. 

But yeah! During these 3 to 4 weeks, I went to a few place.

Post about my trip, I will upload soon. 

Lately, I went for few drinking sessions. I really enjoyed myself with the new friends that I met here.

And it's actually my first time taking caring them too :)

unfortunately, I drunk during one session. I feel embarrassed when I think back about it.

I feel embarrassed not because of I did something wrong,

but I feel embarrassed is because I cried a lot. -.-

I thought I had overcome all the difficult that I faced here 

who knows, I haven. I'm just trying my best to hide myself from it rather than face it

Maybe that's one of the reason that I feel lost here.

Honestly, I m having homesick, but Im not dare to say out and tell my parents

I know I will tears out when I tell them. I told myself to be strong, so I act nothing in front of them.

I miss NDC a lot, looking at the members uploading all practice moments or any related post,

I immediately feel down. Yea, over here I did join dance club, but the feeling is totally different

It's like being ignore over here, practice alone, dance alone without meeting new friends.

But the feeling in NDC is totally different, is like a big family. It's so so so warm.

I keep wondering, did I make a wrong choice to be here? hmmmm!

Last but not least, of course my dearest friends there.

Every single moment chatting, studying together, cook together, heart talk together.

All these are like never happen here. :(

I'm thinking, isn't it my own problem that brings me down and makes me getting outliner?

Isn't it I should put down my every worries, and just move on?

Jace, you have to stand up. You really need to learn what you should do this moment.

I know I can make it :)

Good luck!

New Chapter In Jace's Life

Finally dream comes true, I manage to get myself to exchange to UK for one year.
For me, it is really a new chapter for me, somewhere let me grow up alone.
I had been leaving from Malaysia since 11 of September.
And now is early October. Time passes so fast, and now half a month had passed.

Am I doing good over here? The answer that I always give is YES, I AM.
But actually am I really doing fine here? Im not sure
Honestly, I am missing Malaysia, family, friends, foods and lots.
The moment I was on phone with my friend, I cried badly.
She's the only one that i can share my things with.
Isn't that I dont want to share my stuff with my parents,
but I know, they tried their best to send me here,
because they want to see their girl grow up, being mature, being independent.
I doesn't want disappoint them, I doesn't want them to worry about me.
I believe I can make it.

Seriously, over there, there's no one I can talk with.
Maybe blog is the only way i can express.
Sometimes, I feel really lost with I need a talk, but there's no one be at my side.
When I'm down, no one can be at my side, giving me encouragement.
When I couldn't make any decision, no one giving me advice.
oh yeahhhh! It's really a time for me the learn.
No matter what.

Yesterday I sat at the trent building alone, there's no longer people accompany for lunch.
I don't mind at all.
Maybe it's really tired, I need some break before facing the reality.
The wind blows on me, bringing my trouble my upset away from me.
At the same time, I accidentally touched the necklace that my parents gave me before I leave.
I told myself, I have to be strong. Im no longer a kid.
What I want is just a smile. I will keep bringing on a smile on my face.
:)

*more stories will be update soon*

loves,
Jace.