but seriously, since I'm in UNMC, when i wrote my report,
I didnt really read the journals all one by one, I will just summarize.
But today, I really finished words by words. I'm proud of myself.
*lol! I know there's nothing to proud of, but still, I feel proud about myself*
okay fine! it's over. just let me have some updates about myself.
It's about 19 to 20 days since my last post? okay, I cant really remember.
But yeah! During these 3 to 4 weeks, I went to a few place.
Post about my trip, I will upload soon.
Lately, I went for few drinking sessions. I really enjoyed myself with the new friends that I met here.
And it's actually my first time taking caring them too :)
unfortunately, I drunk during one session. I feel embarrassed when I think back about it.
I feel embarrassed not because of I did something wrong,
but I feel embarrassed is because I cried a lot. -.-
I thought I had overcome all the difficult that I faced here
who knows, I haven. I'm just trying my best to hide myself from it rather than face it
Maybe that's one of the reason that I feel lost here.
Honestly, I m having homesick, but Im not dare to say out and tell my parents
I know I will tears out when I tell them. I told myself to be strong, so I act nothing in front of them.
I miss NDC a lot, looking at the members uploading all practice moments or any related post,
I immediately feel down. Yea, over here I did join dance club, but the feeling is totally different
It's like being ignore over here, practice alone, dance alone without meeting new friends.
But the feeling in NDC is totally different, is like a big family. It's so so so warm.
I keep wondering, did I make a wrong choice to be here? hmmmm!
Last but not least, of course my dearest friends there.
Every single moment chatting, studying together, cook together, heart talk together.
All these are like never happen here. :(
I'm thinking, isn't it my own problem that brings me down and makes me getting outliner?
Isn't it I should put down my every worries, and just move on?
Jace, you have to stand up. You really need to learn what you should do this moment.
I know I can make it :)
Good luck!
No comments:
Post a Comment