PROMISES?,
why everyone likes to make promises but lastly they gonna to break it?
then what's the purpose for you to make a promise.
you know what?
atthe moment when you make the promise,
the person will fully believe with it.
but lastly, you break it again
when you break it,
you already pushing someone down from heaven to the hell!
do you get what i mean?
because of that,
you did make the person can't forget the moment when you promise at all
sometimes, it also make a person can't stand anymore
IT'S HURT.
do know know how funny and how dumb when a person,
waiting for you to achieve your promises?

having some discussion with sisters
it did make me going to kill people
and what, we met the same problem
what i wanna to say is
"just stay up and shut up when you can achieve what you going to promise"




this post doesn't aiming anyone
if you think i m talking about you, then that's YOU!
it is even about about myself?

与情绝缘

与情绝缘 正如朋友说的
无论 友情 亲情 爱情 都一点都不实际
一点都不可靠 让自己迷失自己

但最总不能绝缘的是 舞蹈
唯有舞蹈 让我感觉到自己
好像好像回到当初的自己
陶醉在 舞蹈世界当中

短短的时间内 为何一切一切的变化这么大
是因为 假期呆在家 没与世界接触吗？
我发现 所有所以为的 当真的 曾经的
统统都像乌云一样 消失了

或许 幻想能满足暂时性的满足
但 它却是恶梦的开始
也就此因为这样 我的恶梦也不曾停顿过
一连串的 伤痛 失眠 统统出现
多次想过 “与情绝缘” 但一次又一次的不忍心
哎 我不需要解释 不需要‘借口’
只希望世界有奇迹
一分钟 一小时 一天 一个月 一年
我都不介意 对我而言
我并不在乎 天长地久 只在乎曾经拥有
也许此刻 幻想又再次开始了

sometimes when you're not in your own country
you are with someone that you totally don't know
you will be more enjoy
cause all problems will just stay in your own place
they won't be following you to another place :)

it's hard for us to take a picture together

and what,that's the only picture that i took with my sisters

since i leave da zhi, i didn't really contact with them

sometimes i did feel that i m left out

but what, no choice, who called me to quit da zhi?

(regret)

back to topic, i just chatting with them

guess what? we are chatting about GUYS

but we are not chatting about how leng zai are they?how good are they?

we are chatting about, HOW GUYS HURT US.

omg! i found out that, we nearly meet the same thing

i don't feel like typing out what are we discuss, how hurt are we

but i think we will be strong

(girls, remember the slogan "QIANG")

seriously, kinda pissed off when discuss about it

PS: sis, remember no matter how, i will still be with you guys♥

*it reminds me about him again, and i still don't feel like give up!

now having holiday
what i can say now is,
my holidays are full! :/
i wish to have more holidays!!

回忆 对我来说总是美好的
但 有时 它却成了我的致命伤口
或许把所有回忆给忘了 对我 对你 却是好处
我想是时候 这么做
虽然我不想 但我必须
不想它 成为我和你的 烦恼



*心中的某个角落 仍有保存你存在的地方

要是 时光能倒流的话
我是不会选折回现在的生活！:)

很久没把自己的心情给写上去
其实 该从何处说起
一大堆 不开心 烦恼 总是说不出口
想找人来说诉 往往向电话一看
仍找不到适合的人选
顿时 脑海就浮现 “ 算了吧！”
可是 有时却是有话难言
最近 竟然毫无原因的发脾气
对自己 也开始厌倦了
不想说话 也不想再发泄了
在嘴角 缝着两条线
狠狠地往上拉 那笑容就永远不会消失了

exam is start
but what , i didn't study at all
it is because i was keep busy with citrawarna stuff
and lastly i got high fever for 4 days
last saturday, i forced to be in hospital for one night
i hate being in the hospital :/
besides that, today!
i need to go to hospital again
cause not fuly recovered
luckily this time, i do not need to stay in hospital anymore
PHOBIA!! :(

start from tomottow having citrawarna practice until 7
having practice even exam?
no choice. cause i like it!

*both of my hand got two holes :/

i m damn lost now! :(

as what expect, dreams are always dream
no matter how hard i pray, how much i miss you
that's just i m the only one who think about it
and what i did, it's just a nonsense for everyone
my mood changed very fast today
from full of hopes, happy and excited
it immediately changes to disappointing, down and upset
yea, i know! i m the one who expect everything highly
and lastly what i got it's just nothing
i admit it's my wrong, it's not his fault
but what my mood is still down


sorry for being moody when you called me
it's not your fault, it's my fault
cause i think i m the only one who expect everything highly

what i dream it's never comes true
and i think today i going to be disappointed again
=/

i really don't know what's wrong with me
my results, my singing skill, my keyboard skill. my friendship and more
is getting worst and worst. WTH that i had did?
can someone tell me what's wrong with me?
NO!! NO WAY!
i don't want all my things getting worst, i doesn't wish to lost them

the CHS idol is coming soon, and you know what right now?
i have no confident to join it at all!
I AM USELESS!!


can someone help me?
i really feel like crying it loud now!!
:/

BE FINE SOON! :D

suddenly i realize that i m kinda emotional nowadays
5 minutes before this i was damn happy,
5 minutes after this i was kinda down
wanna to have a sleep now




reason WHY? remains secret



*aikkx

i think it's the time for me to stop thinking the nonsense
i don't care anything more what i care now is you
the one and only



*breathing*

as i had promised not to give up and not to lost my confident, i will do so
as what you had promised me, i hope you will do so too
really having a great night yesterday
i enjoyed that moment. it really cheer me up
i did tried to talk with many people just to be happier but failed
you know? you're the one who really make me happy when i m sad
you even make me smile when i m sleeping

right now, i miss that moment. hope the time can just stopped at that time
just wanna to enjoy the time that i can really spend with you
♥

ILY

once again, having results problem
*be tough be tough be tough*
just kinda disappointed with myself
not happy for the whole day already
no way! no point for me to emo!!
as what my mum told me today, doesn't need to compare any results with others
just try your best that's enough
she gave me an example
" like your brother no matter how hard he study he can't get a good result
but your younger brother without study he still can get a good result
and you, you are the type that need to study extremely hard to just a better result
since young you did study a lot, wanna to get a results but what?
you are different with your younger brother, you study hard just to get a better result not the good one"
i understand about it! that's why i keep blaming myself having an useless brain
my younger brother having exam after holiday
but guess what he did during the whole week holiday?
he is just playing the computer non-stop
for me? few weeks before exam, i did start study
but lastly, i have no eyes to see my results

now, i don't care about it
but why? the results are still going through my mind
*breath in breath out breath in breath out*
i think i will be fine soon

毫无重点的伤心 心酸 是了为什么？

i m confusing right now
i don't know that did i do something wrongly
i just hope i could get a truth

but i hope all these thing is me the one who think too much only

i have no any idea that why am i so useless
i had really tried my best in my exam
but i really can't get the result that i hope
i even going to failed one of my paper
how much time i had spend, how much effort i had put
how much night i spend just to study, how i suffer just to study
i could say the whole week i had a badly headache
but i still put my effort just to get a good result not to disappointed my parent
NOW, my result is just like an empty paper, it's useless the result was worst
WHY? what happen to me? and now i can't even cheer up myself
i had changed a lot just to study and get a good result compare to form 3
lastly, what i get? i can't even have face to faced my result
i really don't know what to do.
why am i having such a useless brain.




ps: i think i will be fine soon!

do you know how's the feeling when you feel you're in heaven?
do you know how's the feeling when you feel you're in hell?
do you know how's the feeling when you feel you're in heaven and hell?

when you're in heaven you can feel very sweet
when you're in hell you can feel that you're suffer
when you're in heaven and hell you can feel both

what now?
now i feel kinda suffer but at the same time i feel sweet too
i wish that i m important to someone but i don't know am i?
he promised to text me but he failed
i didn't blame him, maybe he's busy there's no time for me

i purposely make myself fully crazy tired just to stop thinking about you
i m success! i really did make myself very tired
since he promised, i will try not to sleep tonight
although i m tired, i will just be at side my phone and keep waiting♥




(ps: i m really very tired now)

early morning without his message feel kinda lifeless
yesterday night, i nearly can't fall asleep
although i m tired, but i wouldn't close my eyes at all
what going through my mind is he and he the one and only
OMG! i really can't imagine that i m crazy for him
i think a message from him will just make me hyper the whole day
oh my buddha! i miss him a lot ♥



by the way, having an unhappy morning




(once again, NO ASKING!)

就这样 今早把我吵醒的讯息
彻彻底底地把我从梦境中带到了现实生活
它让我闭不起眼睛来 只是眼睁睁地看着手心里的电话
汗珠一滴一滴地滴着 简讯声不停不停地响起
这封封简讯 让脸上的笑容合不起 面孔也渐渐泛红
努力工作 只为了一顿饭 一场戏
约会 旅行 临时失败 并非我不想 而是有课
心意心领了 但答应下次旅行一定成功
最后 “工作” 也停了美梦
好想好想听着 那熟悉的声音
哄我睡觉 再次在梦境中相约



（看了这短篇，请别问东问西，后果自负！！）

during one week holiday i just stay at home and sleep
finally i went out with my babes today! ♥
nearly crazy during sing k with them
laughing non-stop, playing non-stop, crazy non-stop
that's what normally we did!
wanna to see the special us?
ahaha! too bad, you can't see it!
you just only can see it in the karaoke box!

*hoong

*rong

*ning

*june

*lin

after sing k, we went to watch movie
"Alice in the Wonderland"
once again! we laughing non-stop in the cinema


then we to buy a high heel shoes for june as birthday present
:D

*take1

*take2

*group photo

*the guys
nothing much i can say about today! just one word to describe all
"ENJOY! ♥"

now, i wanna to wish
1) Huoy Wenn (18/03):

happy birthday my dear! meet ya since primary school. and now we are still same class! :) finally you're now 17! big girl already. enjoy your birthday ya

2) June Hwee (19/3):

hey darling! happy birthday ya! i hope you really enjoyed the outing today and also your birthday present. hope you like it. :D i think both of us are dumb. cause last year only we knew that actually we had meet each other since young! ahaha. thanks for you, because always being crazy, laughing with me everyday! i really enjoy, i enjoy that sitting with you too! hey girl you're now 17 already, big girl already o! LOVE YA ♥ Happy Bithday! :D

2 Years Anniversary


two years ago, 17 of march until 20 of march
due to a performance I manage to meet some friends
they are from Melaka and Sarawak
i have no idea to say about it
but the pictures will show everything to you

pictures:

our group picture


melaka friends


sarawak friends


crazy!! xD


sarawak babes


wth?! play inside the lift


melaka babes


rumor boyfriend. =.=


contact list

after few months, we still managed to meet up

*sarawak


*melaka


words to say:
melaka babes: hmm! i m really happy to meet you guys! and i knew that most of you got a good results in SPM! good job! oh yea! i remembered that day we went to your rooms and played true or dare. and also we went to pui yuee's house live together! :) now funny are you guys, how cute are you guys. Do you guys know it? i really wish that we can meet up again and hang out together! Once i said hang out, remember that day what happen in the curve? everyone legs cramp! ahaha! So babes, when you guys got come to KL just text me, or i will try to find a trip to Melaka! ♥
sarawak babes: hey people! I am glad to meet you guys! i really very enjoy to communicate with you guys by different way. it really enjoyed and fun to learn from you all! thanks for teaching us patiently. but one thing that disappointing you guys, which is, i totally forget how to do all those movement already! but i think we still can keep contact with you guys through internet right? ahaha :D




*guess what?! enjoy it! :)


(by the way, forgive me, cause i think there will be a lot of mistake in my post, you know what? cause my english is BAD! so just forgive me)

since i had premised,i will do so!
but what? i regret that i promised!
:(

by the way, i can't wait for the outing with my babes tomorrow
ahaha, you know what?
i love my babes! <3

cute right?
people who came to my house before,
i think you will know how cute and how funny is him!
:)
YEA!
now what i going to post over here is
"my cute LUCKY had passed away last week"
it's kinda sad and boring without you
Rest In Peace,Lucky!
<3

原来 许多完美结局 需要付出很多代价的
但 付出很多代价 并不一定得到完美结局

柔美的音乐从而中穿过
脑子里渐渐浮现出生活中曾经地回忆
心情的开始从高潮渐渐地来到了低潮

当时的承诺都是谎言
当时的回忆都是一场梦
曾经地答应原来是敷衍
曾经的甜美都是欺骗

一切一切在心中只留下那伤痕
努力的弥补只是一种样子
其实法子一点都无法弥碎裂的伤势
麻醉 是让自己开心一点
努力催眠自己 那二十四小时里 睡那二十三小时

there's something happen again
i guess i know what had happen already

hey girl( unknown name)
just cheer up, i know that i m still young,
and i miss a lot of things what u had said
but i wanna to let you know
just remember me and i will be there for you
i know how the hurt feeling
<3

hey people,it's Chinese New Year now
this year, the valentine day is drop on the new year
and i need to go back to Johor
what i can say is
my new year will be bored
it will really bored without you! :(
how ever, i dont feel like going back
cause i miss KL
i miss 5s1
but who cares, just enjoy the days!


PS: suddenly i miss 5s1 so much

that's a sunset picture
what a sunset mean?
for me, i think it means a new day is coming soon
yea! that's what my feeling right now
i wanna to have a new day without any problem
just having my life happily
i wish to smile but i fail
i m forcing my tears drop flowing out from my eyes!

just now i went to had lunch with my host family at Jaya 33
they came to Malaysia to had a family vacation
so, they decided to meet my family over here
this a picture that we took after the lunch



then they came to my house
*these are my so called siblings*


She's my sister

TOMOKO!! =)


and he's my brother

SOPPEI! =D


and this is my host family! =)

thanks for all my babes!

thanks han yong :)


thanks sukesh! =D


thanks chia zheng,sukesh =)


wao, it's from zheng! thanks.


I LOVE IT!!! it's from manie, chia zheng, shao wei! <3


from mon yun! thanks my flirting partner!!=)


thanks xin yuan! =D


it's from YING!!!!!!!!! arggg


but i love them! thanks! <3


gosh!! it's from MELAKA!


thanks jeff!!


thanks yong ching =)

WORDS THAT I WANNA TO EXPRESS OUT:
han yong: you're the first people who give me the present! i appreciate it so much! thanks a lot <3
sukesh: the ever ever ever people who give a lot of SURPRISE for me! and they surprise me! <3
chia zheng: the youngest friend who very close with us! thanks for the card! luckily i didn't cry for it! thanks. <3
manie: the funniest people and cute people that i had meet! meet him from "thanatos" xD thanks, manie! <3
shao wei: shao!! you really make me cry on the spot because of that! but what i wanna to tell you is I LOVE YOU! <3
mon yun: my flirting partner, how long didn't we contact?! but not bad, you remember my birthday! thanks <3
xin yuan: hey, honestly, i know what you wanna to give me before my birthday,so i didn't get shocked when u gave it to me, but thanks! <3
xue ying: your surprise is damn surprise! i almost get angry! cause i thought you forget about me. =( but who knows, at the dinner, and my tears!! but i really heart it! thanks my YYY!! <3
jeff: you know how touch to received a present from Melaka? you will know when you received it, or you try it! thanks a lot jeff!! and i m glad to have you as friends, i think we had meet each other for around1 year plus? going to be 2 years soon! <3
yong ching: what i can say is thanks a lot!! ahaha! but honestly, i still haven open it! =p <3
Lenny: the first who wish me in sms! thanks ya <3
chen hoong: the second person who wish me! before that, thanks for everything when i need a pair of ears! and my birthday that day!! <3>
guo unn: you're in the top 3 wei!! ahaha! thanks for everytime my party you also came. different people,different celebration right? =) <3
sukesh:sorry, you're not in the top 3. but thanks!! <3
xin yuan: thanks again! <3
shao wei: ahaha! my babe who keep wishing me to be old. Learn driving together next year. <3>
diing yienn: you're in the TOP 10!! ahaha, thanks yienn! <3
mon yun: thanks babe!! <3
june hwee: my caring babe, thanks for remember my birthday wei! <3
jeff: the ever sweet friends from melaka!! ahaha!! <3
kelvin: thanks for the wish! but you remember my age wrongly!! =( <3
han yong: thanks again! i will be waiting for the cards! <3
cheng en: ahaha!! jiao lian, i remember yours first! but thanks ya! <3
manie: the people that i always wanna to push him down wish me. thanks ya! <3
xin er: hey sa por! thanks for the wishes! <3
jeffrey: hey my senior, thanks ya! thanks for the wishes!! <3
shi ning: ahaha! u can't hate me this year, cause i know that's you. thanks ya! <3
yu zun: thanks zun, it's sweet. =D <3
kwan seng: the one wjho bully me as my present! but still thanks a lot! <3
jian yuan: thanks! another melaka sweet friend! <3
chia zheng:thanks again, my small little boy boy! <3
chun huei:ahaha!! my cousin remember my birthday this year!! first time FIRST TIME WEI!! <3
kar jun: hey, thanks for all the sweet messages! thanks! <3
some melaka friends: thanks for all my sweet melaka babes! i love you guys! <3

*ps: there's still got a few of them, but sorry, i didn't save your number, so i can't list down your name. BUT STILL THANKS A LOT! <3

and also people who wish me in face book! THANKS <3



HEY PEOPLE, I REALLY HAPPY TO HAVE YOU GUYS AS FRIENDS!
I APRRECIATE YOU GUYS! WHAT I WANNA TO SAY,
YOU ALL ARE MY PART YOU LIFE!
I LOVE YOU ALL!!

2010 is a new year
new year,new day, new ME
anything doesn't good in 2009
just stay away from me
i don't want to be suffer anymore
i feel that I M OLD!!!
so i just wanna to enjoy my life right now!
i got a lot of things to talk to my babes,
i wanna to post everything out!
but sorry, i doesn't have the time
and school reopen soon
just remember A NEW YEAR, A NEW DAY!





*HEY,that's how stupid i am!! xD
I LOVE JACE! <3