as what expect, dreams are always dream
no matter how hard i pray, how much i miss you
that's just i m the only one who think about it
and what i did, it's just a nonsense for everyone
my mood changed very fast today
from full of hopes, happy and excited
it immediately changes to disappointing, down and upset
yea, i know! i m the one who expect everything highly
and lastly what i got it's just nothing
i admit it's my wrong, it's not his fault
but what my mood is still down


sorry for being moody when you called me
it's not your fault, it's my fault
cause i think i m the only one who expect everything highly

what i dream it's never comes true
and i think today i going to be disappointed again
=/

i really don't know what's wrong with me
my results, my singing skill, my keyboard skill. my friendship and more
is getting worst and worst. WTH that i had did?
can someone tell me what's wrong with me?
NO!! NO WAY!
i don't want all my things getting worst, i doesn't wish to lost them

the CHS idol is coming soon, and you know what right now?
i have no confident to join it at all!
I AM USELESS!!


can someone help me?
i really feel like crying it loud now!!
:/

BE FINE SOON! :D

suddenly i realize that i m kinda emotional nowadays
5 minutes before this i was damn happy,
5 minutes after this i was kinda down
wanna to have a sleep now




reason WHY? remains secret



*aikkx

i think it's the time for me to stop thinking the nonsense
i don't care anything more what i care now is you
the one and only



*breathing*

as i had promised not to give up and not to lost my confident, i will do so
as what you had promised me, i hope you will do so too
really having a great night yesterday
i enjoyed that moment. it really cheer me up
i did tried to talk with many people just to be happier but failed
you know? you're the one who really make me happy when i m sad
you even make me smile when i m sleeping

right now, i miss that moment. hope the time can just stopped at that time
just wanna to enjoy the time that i can really spend with you
♥

ILY

once again, having results problem
*be tough be tough be tough*
just kinda disappointed with myself
not happy for the whole day already
no way! no point for me to emo!!
as what my mum told me today, doesn't need to compare any results with others
just try your best that's enough
she gave me an example
" like your brother no matter how hard he study he can't get a good result
but your younger brother without study he still can get a good result
and you, you are the type that need to study extremely hard to just a better result
since young you did study a lot, wanna to get a results but what?
you are different with your younger brother, you study hard just to get a better result not the good one"
i understand about it! that's why i keep blaming myself having an useless brain
my younger brother having exam after holiday
but guess what he did during the whole week holiday?
he is just playing the computer non-stop
for me? few weeks before exam, i did start study
but lastly, i have no eyes to see my results

now, i don't care about it
but why? the results are still going through my mind
*breath in breath out breath in breath out*
i think i will be fine soon

毫无重点的伤心 心酸 是了为什么？

i m confusing right now
i don't know that did i do something wrongly
i just hope i could get a truth

but i hope all these thing is me the one who think too much only

i have no any idea that why am i so useless
i had really tried my best in my exam
but i really can't get the result that i hope
i even going to failed one of my paper
how much time i had spend, how much effort i had put
how much night i spend just to study, how i suffer just to study
i could say the whole week i had a badly headache
but i still put my effort just to get a good result not to disappointed my parent
NOW, my result is just like an empty paper, it's useless the result was worst
WHY? what happen to me? and now i can't even cheer up myself
i had changed a lot just to study and get a good result compare to form 3
lastly, what i get? i can't even have face to faced my result
i really don't know what to do.
why am i having such a useless brain.




ps: i think i will be fine soon!

do you know how's the feeling when you feel you're in heaven?
do you know how's the feeling when you feel you're in hell?
do you know how's the feeling when you feel you're in heaven and hell?

when you're in heaven you can feel very sweet
when you're in hell you can feel that you're suffer
when you're in heaven and hell you can feel both

what now?
now i feel kinda suffer but at the same time i feel sweet too
i wish that i m important to someone but i don't know am i?
he promised to text me but he failed
i didn't blame him, maybe he's busy there's no time for me

i purposely make myself fully crazy tired just to stop thinking about you
i m success! i really did make myself very tired
since he promised, i will try not to sleep tonight
although i m tired, i will just be at side my phone and keep waiting♥




(ps: i m really very tired now)

early morning without his message feel kinda lifeless
yesterday night, i nearly can't fall asleep
although i m tired, but i wouldn't close my eyes at all
what going through my mind is he and he the one and only
OMG! i really can't imagine that i m crazy for him
i think a message from him will just make me hyper the whole day
oh my buddha! i miss him a lot ♥



by the way, having an unhappy morning




(once again, NO ASKING!)

就这样 今早把我吵醒的讯息
彻彻底底地把我从梦境中带到了现实生活
它让我闭不起眼睛来 只是眼睁睁地看着手心里的电话
汗珠一滴一滴地滴着 简讯声不停不停地响起
这封封简讯 让脸上的笑容合不起 面孔也渐渐泛红
努力工作 只为了一顿饭 一场戏
约会 旅行 临时失败 并非我不想 而是有课
心意心领了 但答应下次旅行一定成功
最后 “工作” 也停了美梦
好想好想听着 那熟悉的声音
哄我睡觉 再次在梦境中相约



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during one week holiday i just stay at home and sleep
finally i went out with my babes today! ♥
nearly crazy during sing k with them
laughing non-stop, playing non-stop, crazy non-stop
that's what normally we did!
wanna to see the special us?
ahaha! too bad, you can't see it!
you just only can see it in the karaoke box!

*hoong

*rong

*ning

*june

*lin

after sing k, we went to watch movie
"Alice in the Wonderland"
once again! we laughing non-stop in the cinema


then we to buy a high heel shoes for june as birthday present
:D

*take1

*take2

*group photo

*the guys
nothing much i can say about today! just one word to describe all
"ENJOY! ♥"

now, i wanna to wish
1) Huoy Wenn (18/03):

happy birthday my dear! meet ya since primary school. and now we are still same class! :) finally you're now 17! big girl already. enjoy your birthday ya

2) June Hwee (19/3):

hey darling! happy birthday ya! i hope you really enjoyed the outing today and also your birthday present. hope you like it. :D i think both of us are dumb. cause last year only we knew that actually we had meet each other since young! ahaha. thanks for you, because always being crazy, laughing with me everyday! i really enjoy, i enjoy that sitting with you too! hey girl you're now 17 already, big girl already o! LOVE YA ♥ Happy Bithday! :D

2 Years Anniversary


two years ago, 17 of march until 20 of march
due to a performance I manage to meet some friends
they are from Melaka and Sarawak
i have no idea to say about it
but the pictures will show everything to you

pictures:

our group picture


melaka friends


sarawak friends


crazy!! xD


sarawak babes


wth?! play inside the lift


melaka babes


rumor boyfriend. =.=


contact list

after few months, we still managed to meet up

*sarawak


*melaka


words to say:
melaka babes: hmm! i m really happy to meet you guys! and i knew that most of you got a good results in SPM! good job! oh yea! i remembered that day we went to your rooms and played true or dare. and also we went to pui yuee's house live together! :) now funny are you guys, how cute are you guys. Do you guys know it? i really wish that we can meet up again and hang out together! Once i said hang out, remember that day what happen in the curve? everyone legs cramp! ahaha! So babes, when you guys got come to KL just text me, or i will try to find a trip to Melaka! ♥
sarawak babes: hey people! I am glad to meet you guys! i really very enjoy to communicate with you guys by different way. it really enjoyed and fun to learn from you all! thanks for teaching us patiently. but one thing that disappointing you guys, which is, i totally forget how to do all those movement already! but i think we still can keep contact with you guys through internet right? ahaha :D




*guess what?! enjoy it! :)


(by the way, forgive me, cause i think there will be a lot of mistake in my post, you know what? cause my english is BAD! so just forgive me)

since i had premised,i will do so!
but what? i regret that i promised!
:(

by the way, i can't wait for the outing with my babes tomorrow
ahaha, you know what?
i love my babes! <3

cute right?
people who came to my house before,
i think you will know how cute and how funny is him!
:)
YEA!
now what i going to post over here is
"my cute LUCKY had passed away last week"
it's kinda sad and boring without you
Rest In Peace,Lucky!
<3

原来 许多完美结局 需要付出很多代价的
但 付出很多代价 并不一定得到完美结局

柔美的音乐从而中穿过
脑子里渐渐浮现出生活中曾经地回忆
心情的开始从高潮渐渐地来到了低潮

当时的承诺都是谎言
当时的回忆都是一场梦
曾经地答应原来是敷衍
曾经的甜美都是欺骗

一切一切在心中只留下那伤痕
努力的弥补只是一种样子
其实法子一点都无法弥碎裂的伤势
麻醉 是让自己开心一点
努力催眠自己 那二十四小时里 睡那二十三小时

there's something happen again
i guess i know what had happen already

hey girl( unknown name)
just cheer up, i know that i m still young,
and i miss a lot of things what u had said
but i wanna to let you know
just remember me and i will be there for you
i know how the hurt feeling
<3