words for JWINES

i don't care anything in your mind. yea! for you guys, it sounds hurt. and now i going to say sorry to you if i did hurt you. but i don't care! i still wanna to say all things out, i can't imagine what's going on after this. but i know that, honest is just the one and only solution. do you remember how everyday we spend our night? it's TEXTING. we used to gossip, chatting about hot guys, what we have to pack for camp or trip, what books we have to bring on the next day, our relationship problems,what we doing on the spot and even our past by using texting. and it become one of my habit. but now,i didn't even manage to receive any message from you. no matter how my phone rings, my phone will never appear your names. as time pass, the message getting lesser and lesser and lastly disappear. at first, i am not use to it, but i have to forced myself to accept it. now, i manage to handle it

slowly i don't even have the dare to on your facebook profile. even sometimes, i don't even dare to STOP myself at the HOME page. all these most recent status making me emo. it's because i don't even know what the hell are you talking about. gossip, outing, crapping, spamming are disappear. i was stun whenever the new status in your profile. i forced myself to know everything from you, but i FAIL. i can't even update any news from you guys. for you, it's sounds like my fault, but do you think before if you am i, what's your feeling. keep saying that we are grown up, but do we really grow up, being mature, care for someone, think everything well for others for now and even future? yea! maybe now we keep blaming each other, but we're leaving each soon, i mean that we're not going to study at the same place anymore and what we meet will no longer the same. maybe someday you will just realize the world are different from our high school life. it can be even more complicated. yea! i wish we really have to wake up as soon as possible, so we can't still share our time together in the future. TAK CARE.

we really have a talk. but i can't really face to face to have it with you guys. i believe that i can't control my emotional at all. it's really sweet about our memories, the moment we laugh, we sampat, we cry for each others and lots. but too bad, i accidentally know that the LOVE that i treat them truly kena say i sympathy. OMG! i even cry badly when i know about it. my world was like fall. i nearly being crazy when i know that. i don't even have to mood to exam at all. i knows it during my SPM. i just crying badly on the spot. i really treat you guy with a true heart, you what? i hurt badly when i was form 2. i didn't really have a true friend beside Bernice. until form 4, i meet JWINES. i believe that you guys are one of the important in my life. now i going to be hurt again? NO, i don't want. JWINES is the ever crazy group that i had ever meet.

*my mind is blank now*

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